happy january! (not)

Taking a break from the kids has turned me into Mommy Dearest.  I have no patience.  They are too loud, whiny, and demanding, and they want me to do things I know they can do themselves.  They poke me and fight and use words they ought not to.

I need to take a step back and get a grip and take proper care of them again, but I find that I feel not a small amount of resentment toward them.  Which, just. . . I need to get a grip!  Like I always say, I knew the job was dangerous when I took it.  I think maybe I just need to deal with other things going on so I can be a nice mama again.  Not that I was ever stellar about not yelling and all that, but things are definitely not so great around here.  The worst part is that I can see and hear how I’m treating them and I do it anyway.  (uh, note to anyone overly concerned:  no need to call cps or anything, I’m not, like, beating them or calling them names, I’m just using too much volume)  And I have no one to blame but myself, so I guess starting now I will just suck it up, step up to the plate or whatever, and PLAY NICE. 

wish me luck

edited at 8:37 pm to add:

Tonight being a better parent means letting the kids stay up a little bit after bedtime to finish watching Flubber instead of shrieking at them about taking a bath.  If there is one thing I am good at, it is going from one extreme to the other.

2 thoughts on “happy january! (not)

  1. Marsha

    I hear you, I’ve been there more times than I can count.

    Give it some time. Time for the family to forgive you for daring to go away. Time for you to get back into the zone. The zone where you keep track of one million things all at once.


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