I am in the same coffee cup shaped boat as Nina. The stuff I enjoyed about being at blogher was the same stuff that motivates me to blog in the first place; the talking and listening and community making. Can I html code? Not without superhuman effort. Is it good or bad to email someone higher on the ladder and ask them to link to you? I never wondered about it before. So, the sessions were interesting, thought provoking and even fun, but for me the real content was all milling about in the hallways, balancing coffee on those fucking binders that didn’t fit in the free bag. I’ll shut up about the bags.
I want to say, now that I don’t have a microphone invisibly sucking out my ability to form a sentence (though I am really tired this morning, and just typing is a bit of a chore in itself), that ‘mommy’ bloggers are, or can be, political. I think it’s important to tell people that being a parent is hard. That sometimes (when the children are gleefully pushing your buttons while you try to get an entire bag of uncooked rice out of the burners on the stove while wearing your pajamas at 11:45 am and the mailman comes to the door and your child answers naked with scissors in one hand and a popsicle in the other, or usually in less extreme cases), the ‘reward’ of parenting seems puny or elusive or non-existent. It’s important to let people know that being a parent is more about learning than instinct. Really, I think most of my instincts about it are wrong, because my instinct is telling me to give it whatever it wants so that it will not shriek at me. (right now, Sophie is licking me. and the computer mouse) The reason it is so vital to tell this truth is that many women who feel this way, who don’t feel like they are maternal or able or competent, think that they are doing something wrong. It is so much easier to cope with feeling inadequate when you discover that you aren’t inadequate, but you are a real, normal parent. And once you feel that way, parenting gets easier and healthier because you are now free to focus on what works instead of hating yourself and questioning every decision you make.
I have to get the whole famdamily to a birthday party in an hour. We have to make two trips because the new van won’t be ours till tomorrow night.